I'm 20 years old and in no hurry to grow up. I am slowly changing my life and my inner self. I'm finally going to school for music (eventually) and I'm so very excited to get started. That excitement will probably leave once I actually start but let's live in the moment for now, shall we?

I'm generally a friendly person; I get along with most but I don't have very many people I call a friend. I'm actually now starting to realize the importance of having people in your life who give a shit about you. So I'm trying to change that negative image I've built up about people in general and hopefully learn how to branch out and be more outgoing.

I do like to do good for people though. I will always be there to help someone in any way that I can. I like to give hugs even if I don't know you all that well. I like to make others happy. I don't do nice things because I expect nice things back. I do nice things because it's the right thing to do.

I am a random and slightly weird person. I can forget what I'm talking about right when I'm talking about it. I like to dance. A lot. The dollar store is my favorite place to go. I like to go there, buy random things, and give those random things to people I like. Nothing says you're awesome like something you absolutely do not need or do not expect to get.

I can be brutally honest and extremely sarcastic. I'm not a genius but I'm not an idiot. I like to love and be loved.

I dislike labels quite a bit. I understand that some of them are necessary and can't be avoided, but alot of them are not necessary and simply do not matter. You don't judge people by what they say they are, who they love, what color they are or what gender they are. You get to know them for what's in their hearts. Nothing in life is black and white so to stereotype someone for stupid reasons is just plain wrong. I don't wanna ramble on about this too much, but treating everyone equally and not looking down on them for things they can't help is very important to me.

I choose not to label myself with a sexual orientation. At the very least I'll say that I'm pomosexual but okc isn't cool enough to have that option or cool enough to not make you choose one. Love comes in many colors, many shapes, many different packages. All that matters is what's on the inside and how they treat me.

I really like going to the park for no reason other than to enjoy the atmosphere.

The cleaning supplies aisle is one of my favorite aisles in the store.

Being dishonest and being disrespectful are definite ways to get me to not speak to you for a very long time.

I use to be really anti-drinking and didn't really like it when people did. I didn't have much of a reason for this other than I didn't understand why people would willingly get intoxicated and do stupid things. Well after actually doing it my view has changed. Drinking is fine. Drinking is really fun. It actually helps me to be more talkative and outgoing instead of shy and closed off like normal. But if you abuse it and drink way too much that's when it becomes stupid.

I really do like long walks on the beach.

I am in a polyamorous relationship with dotherightthing, and justmeow. You don't have to be involved with them at all other than just be willing to be their friend. Or at least not kill them. That wouldn't be nice. I kinda like them. So don't do that. With so much love coming from two wonderful people at the moment, I am only looking for friendships. New people are always welcome in my life if they are cool enough :)

Nothing at the moment... going to school eventually. I had to take a break from school. I'll be going for music education. Probably teach high school kids.

One day I plan to write a very fantastic musical and when that day comes it'll probably always be one of the happiest days of my life.

I want to be a composer. I also want to sing. There's something about being on stage that just makes everything feel like it's right. It gives you this weird sort of high that I miss very much. I wanna be a chorus teacher. Maybe I'll do them all and more.

Oh and I work overnight at Wal-Mart. Joy.

Singing. It's what I love doing the most out of all the things that I do. I enjoy singing arias a whole lot. I think singing classical is more difficult than just regular singing because it takes a lot more work. I can do regular singing too. Over the years I've learned to sing different genres and I'm really proud of that. :)

Cooking. Everything I cook usually turns out well. My family thinks my shrimp alfredo is fantastic. I think it's good but not great but everyone is their worst critic. I cook good spaghetti, lasagna, baked chicken and awesome string beans. I cook a good roast too but I never count that because I don't do much to it. But I guess the seasoning is everything. Or something. Learning how to cook new things is always incredibly fun too.

Jewelry Making. That was one of my favorite classes in high school and I continued it well after I left. I wear the jewelry that I make on occasion and I do enjoy making jewelry for the people I think are cool. I like finding cool beads and buttons to make jewelry with. I like making cool bracelets with a bead loom though it does take a long time. The finished result is always cool though. So if I ever make you jewelry be happy because I put a lot of work and love in to it. :)

People say I have a pretty smile. And pretty eyes. And that I have awesome boots. Or probably what I'm wearing. I usually get complimented on that alot.

All the Harry Potters. The last one was AMAZING. So amazing that I'm going to read it again. I remember reading Of Mice and Men. That was a pretty good book. It made me cry so that meant it had to be good since books and movies don't make me cry. With the exception of Rent and Passion of the Christ. The latter was just awful to watch and I'll never watch that movie again for the rest of my life.

Anyway right now I'm reading I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings by Maya Angelou. I should seriously be done with it by now but I guess I haven't gotten to the good part yet so I keep putting it down. Next on the list is the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. I always try to have a book to read. I also really enjoy poems by Emily Dickinson.

Favorite movie is Rent. We can add Phantom of the Opera and Across the Universe in there too. I like musicals. I'm not all that thrilled about movies honestly, which is funny because I worked at a movie store for almost a year. I barely watched any of the movies.

Music-wise, too much to name. I love all types of music. From Ella Fitzgerald to The Clash, to Ciara, to Slipknot and Bach. I love it all. My ultimate fav. band is System of a Down...on good days. Because I can also put Avenged Sevenfold or Coheed and Cambria there as my ultimate favorite and be content with that.She wants revenge captivates my fucking heart! But I'm trying really hard not to name all the amazing musicians that I love so I'm just going to stop talking now.

My fav. type of food is Chinese. Fried rice (shrimp fried or pork fried) is one of the greatest foods ever, hands down! I pretty much think almost all rice is amazing. And I absolutely love sushi. And pasta.

1. Music.
2. Computer.
3. Food.
4. Love.
5. My book to write in/draw in.

My life. Ways to make it better. Love. My future.

Well if we are talking about Friday literally I am working. I usually work most nights. I am free during the day and that's when people are usually busy working and going to school and all those lame things.

But during my spare time I just like to take it easy. I'm not big on parties and going out being wild and crazy, but I do go to small get togethers from time to time. I'm really trying to get out more and do more things. It's a work in progress.

I seem pretty outgoing, but I have social anxiety. I probably won't be the person asking you to hang out; I hope you'll be asking me.
(I take that back. I'll ask you to hang out. But I'll be incredibly nervous and my hands will shake as I do so.)

I draw but you'll probably never ever see my drawings.

I have a nerd fetish. :D

I like polyamory better than monogamy.

I talk like a white girl apparently. It's really annoying that people say it like that because I don't talk like a typical black person.

The way to my heart is through my stomach. If you cook for me I'll think you're amazing. Cooking together is also pretty nice. :)

If you have something awesome to say. If you don't have something awesome to say. Don't be afraid; I'll most likely respond back.

If you think you could be a good friend to me. Because I want friends. If something more develops then yay us! If it feels right then I'm not gonna stop it. If not, that's okay too. So if you think we might get along and wanna hang out feel free to say hi. :)

Don't message me if you just want sex. That option isn't there in the Looking For section for a reason.

If I can talk music with you. Not just "Oh my God this band sounds good" but go into more detail about it. I was going to give examples, but I saw myself going into a really long rant about artists and I knew that I shouldn't do that. Not here. And if I can talk to you about classical stuff and classical composers too then you need to message me. Right now. But if I can have talks with you about any style of music I will be really thrilled to talk you!

I like to be in long committed relationships. Even though I'm not really looking for a relationship right now it still should be known. So if you have commitment issues or something then I'm probably not the person for you.

You should message me because I'm probably too scared to message you. :(

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